I'm sitting at a Starbucks in Antioch CA, predominantly, because of the great air conditioning. It's been a rough week in sales. It seems as though there are seasons, like everything else in life. I'm trying my best to not solely rely on my own ability to gain wealth. Although I've been created to work, I have to acknowledge that I have to get set in a good place to accumulate that wealth. Hopefully the marketing department will get better and this season of little, will turn into much more.
I'm completely broke, if I'm honest. But I'm okay for the rest of the weekend. I have enough to get me through, and really I only say that out of faith. I barely have enough for this cup of coffee I'm drinking. I get payed on Monday, because direct deposit for my bank takes that long to get my funding into me (switching banks soon).
I had a rough night the other night in my hotel. I was overwhelmed with a sense of depression.
Depression: Severe despondency and dejection, accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy
I take it that this sense of hopelessness had come out of my past. It's funny how so my years can pass and yet some wounds don't always fully heal. You carry them into the future, in hopes that one day, the pain will cease completely.
I miss home a lot. Today's a good friends birthday and I want to be home to celebrate with him. Fortunately when I get back, I can go to the sour fest, and enjoy being back home with family and friends. One more week before a break. I really need to retrain a little bit with my VP. And I really need to fellowship with my friends from Epikos. I believe I miss them the most.
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